The Quicksand of Conflict
A person caught in quicksand, just like the one who is drowning, will grasp at anything around them in the chaos of their sinking. Their actions might make no sense and could harm them further, as well as others around them who might be trying to help.
The safest way out of sinking tends to come from somehow rising above, and the same logic applies when we are exposed to an event that seemingly triggers us to lose our conscious awareness, fall back, and begin playing in the dense mud of old-acquired reactive patterns.
Common sense tends to exit stage left when reactivity takes over, as there is simply no room for both. We begin playing in unconscious, closed loops that almost always tend to spiral downward.
The damage done at the moment of unconscious reactivity can be difficult to reverse after we calm down and regain awareness as the closed energetic loop of unconscious chaos burns itself out.
Welcome to the quicksand of the energetic world; hate and fear that lead to reactive conflict.
Unfortunately, this is where much of our focus is drawn if you follow the news or are exposed to any form of social media. This constant exposure keeps us playing at very low frequencies as a species and renders ascending beyond them a difficult task. Even if you disconnect your TV and yourself from the conflict-ridden world around you, this does not mean that this energy will not find its way into your world and make itself visible, as we all still live here on planet Earth.
Thankfully, many now understand that the macrocosm is nothing but the large projector screen of the microcosm and that as within, so without. We can turn our backs and ignore the low vibrations out there, but what happens when, in our ignoring of them, we suddenly wake up to find ourselves drowning in them?
Ignoring can be good for a while, but in the end, what is left unresolved has a funny way of catching up with us. Like an old friend that suddenly appears on your doorstep, seemingly uninvited, with some baggage... What do you do?
Do you sit down and play catch-up, or do you send them along their merry way? Have you the resilience to do either? Have you prepared yourself, or were you too busy ignoring?
Sometimes the old friend is here to resolve some issues that you might not be prepared to face or thought that time might have resolved them for you. Issues you thought you had laid to rest and do not wish to resurrect. The old friend at your doorstep is the part of you you’ve been ignoring all your life and is now asking to be seen by you.
It wants you to make peace with it, regardless of the pain it might cause you to do so. Regardless, the hurt, shame, and discomfort interacting with it might unearth.
What old friend might be visiting you right now? Where are you feeling threatened in your life right now?
What are the parts of you that were buried that need to be seen and honored by you? What parts of you need you to set them free after you look them in the eyes, shake their hand, and tell them you love and accept them and that they can safely go home now?
What parts of you can you no longer ignore?
This is how we choose peace over feeding the bottomless pit that is the quicksand of internal conflict that has metastasized itself into the outside world as the monster of war. Resolving the collective shadow of global conflict starts when every one of us tends to our wounds rather than ignoring them and blindly projecting them outwards throughout our lives.
The parts of you that continue to dominate your unconscious mind will mirror themselves in how you view people, the uncomfortable situations you repeatedly find yourself in, and the way you perceive the world around you.
They do this because you refuse to see them. And when you do see them and finally acknowledge them, you will find that they will suddenly stop. The monster will suddenly go away when you finally accept the parts of yourself the world has told you to ignore and reject. The parts of yourself that you have grown to hide, resent, and fear. The parts of yourself you have silently gone to war with.
Do the work as uncomfortable as it might be so that you do not suddenly find yourself feeling threatened and your life interrupted by unwanted visitors from the past who have appeared at your doorstep uninvited and are staring you in the eyes for you to finally see them.
If this is where you find yourself in your journey right now, then I would humbly advise you to lay your weapons down. To not wrestle the unwanted visitors to the ground and to not fear them or chase them out.
The next time you find yourself in the spiraling quicksand of reactive conflict, choose to not sink. Choose something different for yourself this time around by setting the precedent for yourself.
This time, choose love by loving the aspects of you that you hate and fear. Choose to rise instead of sink, because you are your savior.
The cycle ends with you.
The power lies within you.
The key and the lock are both held by you.
So go ahead and set yourself free.
Healing Affirmations:
I accept myself for who I am.
I love all aspects of myself.
I am safe to be me.
I am safe in this world.
I am safe in my body.
I am here to be me.
I embrace all aspects of myself.
I am not what happened to me.
I am not my thoughts.
I am not my emotions.
I let go of the old and welcome in the new.
I choose love over fear.
May I be happy.
May I be healthy.
May I be at peace.
May I be free from suffering.
May my heart be filled with love and kindness.